- You enjoy crying
- You enjoy the feeling of having your heart ripped out of your chest
- You enjoy yelling at the screen
- You enjoy feeling conflicted
- You enjoy feeling happy for a little while, but having those feelings smashed into a million pieces
- You’re willing to sell your soul to Chris Carter

if he did Donna would see it on television, recognize him and thus her mind would burn up.
Eleven has realized this and thus he’s now carrying it to save her life.
He’s got it under control.